My plan is working. Being by myself will make me happy. It’s already been three months since we saw each other on that beautiful summer day. I can be without her or without anyone else. But first I have to change something which is killing me here and all those familiar faces… Friends and family are the only people who can add some color to my gray days. 50 shades of grey is literally a perfect description of my life right now. Even whipping and the red dildo would sometimes be the preferred choice instead of facing my bitter reality in this world.
“Even whipping and the red dildo would sometimes be the preferred choice instead of facing my bitter reality in this world.”
While browsing the internet I randomly landed on a page with an article about traveling. It was a very inspiring one and it was about how liberating it can feel. There are a lot of people that got changed by the experience. There is a lot of artists who need an environment change, so their creativity can live. I’ll go on on my own in a different environment. My work is not located in one place. I am a photographer and a visual artist, so I can work anywhere. I bought a one-way ticket to Asia. I will pull away from the people and from myself. I want to go far away to find myself. It looks like I’m not making much progress in this direction here. My goal is to find myself and to discover the world, after all, it’s been ages since I was so spontaneous. My heart is pounding so fast as if I have just finished running the marathon of my life. This is it. That decision is the right one, I can tell that just by looking my self in the mirror. I look like phoenix on the burning side.
“I will pull away from the people and from myself.”
I decided to make a good luck toast to my perfect plan and when I was on my way to the fridge to get some chilled champagne my phone rang. I received a text message from an unknown number and it said: “Then let this be our life!” From one type of euphoria, it turned to another. Saying that I experienced an emotional roller coaster would be an understatement. Is it possible that someone from somewhere up above is testing me? If that is really a test, let it be, but this time it’s my way and my way is the only way.
“Then let this be our life!”
